What a difficult decision. I just don't know which way to go. So here is the deal. I have four lovely children. They are a joy in my life. Yes, there are those many times I must complain. I mean, raising kids is no easy task, but regardless, I can't imagine life without them. So last year when Logan was just over four months old we had an "unexpected whoopsie". I was fertile, I was not on birth control, and two weeks later my pregnancy test turned positive. Apparently our little girl didn't want to wait for me to be READY AGAIN. So, here she is and I love her to bits. Well, here I am again. Faced with the decision to choose a form of birth control. Last year, I chose none. Reason: THE PILL MAKES ME CRAZY. Ok, maybe not literally, but I know when I'm on it I feel more depressed, NO sex drive, pretty much a MOODY Queen. Every time I give it a try, the results are the same. I will be honest, I don't want to have more kids. How could I say such a thing??...I love my babies! I sometimes wish time would slow down. It even makes me sad when I see my tiny thing grow so fast. Who wouldn't want just millions of these tiny sweet spirits? So, it has nothing to do with those things. What it does have to do with is this: First, Affordability; We strive to provide the necessities for the ones we have. I don't want to rely on government to do that for me. Alex does his best, he has three jobs, and does a fantastic job being our provider. Second, House; We bought this house as a starter home. We had one child, now we have four. We are caught in the housing crisis, and because we care about our credit and living up to our "obligations", we are here to stay. We are squished, but we will survive. Third, Me; Can I be more selfish? I am 32, Alex is going on 37. I suffer with terrible varicose veins. And pregnancy just does not suit me. I just want to feel physically well so that I can play with and raise my kids. So decision time is here.
What form of Birth Control to use? I can't afford another "whoopsie" (although I'm really glad she is here). The pill? Do I just keep trying different ones till I fine "the best one"? Condoms? (that won't work) I was going to choose the IUD, but our insurance doesn't cover it, so it will cost us $850 out of pocket. So there are the more "permanent" choices. Vasectomy or getting tubes tied. Both covered by our insurance. I don't know why, I just don't want to do anything permanent. (Lets not take this to mean I want more kids). It just makes me nervous. So I want to know from any of my readers what would you do? If you've had the Mirena IUD, did you like it? How did the hormones affect you? Would you pay that much out of pocket?