No Win For Me :(
Here's the story:
So during this whole voting process I seriously stressed out my brain trying to figure out how in the world I could generate the most votes. I mean, I seriously stressed myself into headaches and lack of sleep. Someone I know, suggested I just make up a bunch of votes using different email addresses. I thought it was a great idea. So I went through my emails. You know when you get a forward from someone and it comes with TONS of email addresses to other people? Well I copied and pasted about 350 email addresses into a word document in hopes of using those to generate votes. After some thought I realized this was not very honest. Not to mention, each computer comes with and I.S.P. address. If there were over 350 votes coming from one ISP then it would be a bit obvious. However, you never know if the radio station was even looking at the ISP addresses of the voters. Either way, it felt dishonest, so I opted Not to do that.
My new plan was to use these 350 email addresses and send them and email, begging for their vote. Kind of annoying, but I REALLY wanted the cash! I sent TONS of emails. I also sent a message to EVERY SINGLE PERSON on my Facebook Page. Again annoying. There was no way of knowing how many votes I was getting, so it was a big waiting game.
Friday morning came. The announcement was going to be made sometime between 5:30am and 10am. Of course I was up at 5 and couldn't sleep. I turned on the radio and listened to all the annoying music and commercials until about 7:15am. I decided not to sit around and wait anymore and went to Zumba. I got home and the announcement was not made yet. The DJ said they were in the process of counting and that their Hot Mom site got over a half a million hits! Anyway I was so nervous that I could hardly breathe. Finally the announcement came, and it was Not me.
I was sad of course. I thought "oh, well, good try." Then reality set in and I started to cry. This was really annoying to me. I swore I wouldn't cry over this dumb competition. I guess the stress of it all just came to a crashing halt. I could have cared less about being in the top 10 hot moms. The title meant NOTHING. I wanted the cash. How long has it been since I got a paycheck? Since 2004! And I've been doing the hardest job of my life since. During that time the only clothing I bought was something cheap to get me by till my next pregnancy. Anyway, that money to me meant I could get some clothes, and a much needed bunk bed for my kids. The loss made me realize all those possibilities were gone. I bawled....and bawled...and bawled some more. It was a bad day. I had NOTHING to do that day to even help me get it off my mind, not even groceries or cleaning. Not one person called me to see how I was doing. All around, Friday was bad. So that is my sob story. I am doing MUCH better today. I am over it. Loss is part of life. At least I have great kids who are strong and healthy and happy.