Surprise! You Are Not Going To Want To Miss This One!
You see that faint little line???? That's right! Faint or Bold....it means the same! Planned? I would have to be crazy! SO. NOT. PLANNED! So not ready! Ready or not here it comes. I wasn't going to make an announcement until Christmas, but I have been such a ball of emotions I can no longer contain myself. I have been in a whirlwind of tears, extreme fear, and slight excitement that I can officially say I am Done! Tears? I just don't feel ready to take on another pregnancy and baby right away. I mean c'mon...I have a baby. He is 6 months old. My body still hasn't "recovered". I'm still getting up with him every night to "re-insert the nuk". With my other kids, I had mentally prepared myself for the "Nine months ahead". I was excited. So I could bear the aches, the nausea, the sleepless nights, the hunger, and my worst symptom of all, REALLY BAD varicose veins that swell my legs and labia to a constant state of discomfort. And the only relief I get from those is when I deliver the baby. Yes it has been six months since I had Logan, but it really only feels like two. So I am having a REALLY hard time getting excited! I am Extremely fearful because we are in a small little starter home that was intended to be just that. Like most, we owe more on our home than what we could sell it for. Lucky for us we can afford the mortgage. Unlucky for us, that means we are stuck. Unless by some stroke of luck and answers to prayers, something works out for us to move into a more "suitable" home. I know there are moms out there thinking, "oh, that is nothing, I raised 6 kids in a one bedroom house.". Ladies, contrary to what you may think, I am not one of those super organized, super patient, super moms that can make anything work and be super chipper about it. Reality is, I can't sleep with a baby in my room. I don't have the patience when it comes to walking all over my kids toys because they don't have anywhere else to play. More than likely, it will just have to be that way, and I will just have to learn how to deal with it. I just feel like a more stressed person when I don't have my space. So I guess you could say I'm a bit stressed out. Now the exciting part, I knew that Four was my number, which means...after this....I am done! Well, that is all for now. Plenty more posts to come :)